I have to start somewhere, right? How about next week...

And that's how it's always been, how it's NEVER started. I told myself before I got pregnant with baby #2 that I was going to get in shape and exercise, so that when I DID get pregnant, I was able to continue to exercise to keep my body fit. That never happened. Sure I got a membership to the gym- but actually getting there took more effort than what I was doing there. Not to mention, the $33/month added up quickly when I was only going 2x/month. If I had gotten off my ass and gone even 3-4 times per week, that $33/month would have been totally worth it. I concluded that my body wasn't great, but that I was okay with it.

Baby #1, I had that kind of "morning" sickness that lasts 24 hours. Therefore, I lost 15 lbs. my first trimester. I gained 40 lbs in total, but after my csection (long story) I lost about 12 lbs because baby #1 was a chunk at 9 lbs 6 oz. Take that out, plus some water weight, and I was down immediately. Add breastfeeding to that, and I was back to pre-baby weight by the time he was 2 months old.

Then came baby #2. Neither baby was planned... however this one was an extra surprise. We had wanted to wait, however the Big Guy had different plans for us. I refer to him as "The Birthday Baby," because he was conceived [on or around] Daddy's birthday. We planned a scheduled csection for this one, just because I didn't want to wait. I gained about 40 lbs again, except this time... the extra isn't going anywhere!!! :(

I know, that I am to blame for this. I don't exercise, and for the past couple months have eaten what I wanted. I figured because I was nursing, everything would just go back to how it was, like with baby #1. Boy, was I wrong! Now I'm stuck. Stuck at 173-176. Those are the numbers I see when I step daily on the scale. Once in the morning, once at night.

This though, is officially where it ends. I'm so effing tired of seeing those numbers on the scale.  This weekend the plan is to make up a workout that I can do at home, on my own time. I bought a cheap notebook at the store to record EVERYTHING. Food, exercise, nursing, how long I nurse... literally everything. So... here I go. Wish me luck on this journey.... Lord knows I need it!